feminists: race & menstruation

So i finally updated my link with the blogs/fetish/porn sites that i visit…mostly since i have evolved from  being WAY too tired of hating myself and my cunt and vagina while it’s bleeding which is often….there appears to be VERY VERY race analysis in the work and most of them are white women so far…still on the hunt for african, women of colour, and other non minority women with an analysis that leans towards this way..is thats you then holla, if you know someone then link me to them …just a heads up.

on the “red” tip :) UNpacking My Menses

Quite frankly, i prefer referring to my menstruation as bleeding. I know i can see the symbolism of that, dare i say that it connotes more of the pain, cutting that i am more comfortable feeling like my menses are a more appropriate reflection of than say part of my body’s monthly cycle and biological processes like the boogers or the migraines or the pain at the base of my back or my left heel

I have not had a very positive relationship with my blood and bleeding and i have struggled to get to a place where i was doing better at loving my period like a good feminist should. I on the other hand was having very many difficulties and did many things to try to control and “manage ” especially when i was in a relationship or was horny and was looking for some fucking..see i did not/ do not like the messy introduction or conversation with a complete stranger about how i will bleed over them and no it will not end in 3 days it might last for several months and yes it hurts most of the time just like a real period and yes i have a normal flow and yes its red, well sometimes its dark almost rusty brown and mostly clots but on other days its a free flowing red blood.

I like the smell of my period and when i am by myself, i forget the pads, tampons and gladly bleed on my bed, i got a leather couch for this purpose. I do use the kotex pads, but most of the other menstrual products i have tried including the cloth pads and the keeper (haven’t tried the sea sponge or any other products) mostly out of laziness, well no the stores are all these whitey, green vegan type places that i generally stay the hell way from. why? some of the women rub me the wrong way, i remember the last time i went to one to pick up my keeper she, the lady who worked there was shocked that i knew exactly what i wanted etc….whatever!

In anycase, given the sheer volume of my consumption of pads, i’m thinking of trying the organic pads but of they are expensive then i am sorry but i will have to continue to fill up those landfills untill i have more more after i do grocery shopping/pay the rent/ to buy organic pads, i don’t even but organic food not to mention pads . But i guess my coochie is worth it.

In any case, so tired of the stigmatizing and pathologizing of sexual truama survivors, that unequivocally suggests that it is due to sexual truama that individuals will encounter abnormal/strange feelings of thier genitalia and other affected areas and this had been adequately researched and proven therefore allowing the stupid bitches that i knew to claim with minor resistance from me on my part that my irregular period and other pussy malfunctions were as a direct result of my undealt with issues from the truama that i mutherfucking survived, thier words not mine, thier critical analysis not mine, thier mutherfucking stigma constructructed as alliance, assistance, support and friendship.

Moving on, in any case, i’m not saying that i am presently on a red tip for real as in a true love of my pussy whether she id red and oozing trickles of red blood or she is crinkled and dry but i am working on it with a veangeance.

Growing up i was envious of the girls my age who had seen thier blood, cos they were all grown up, they could have babies, thier father and parents kept close watch least they blink and discover that thier once a good girl daughter was now pregnant. My mother had the talk with me when i first gor my period she got me the local pad which felt like bunched up tissue paper and was thick and barely as in barely stuck to my underwear, so that i had all these tiny stain on my underwear and clothes and most of the women in my house knew that i gotten my period. Also, i didn’t know that it continued non stop so when it looked like there was no longer a flow i would take of the pad and ens up staining everything. So my mom gave me another talk along with the you should bathe at least twice a day now so that you don’t smell, change your pads and keep your legs together and pay special atention to your panties when you wash them, not goingto give you any other underwaer other than the white marks and spencers cos only dirty dirty girls dey wear coloured underwear and i was off into the world of bleeding.

Well, my period went away after about i week i think, which my mom told me that most first times are extra long and didn’t return for about 1year.

To be continued

are you up with the RED thing?

Allright, i promise to write a whole entire post on menses, menstruation and bleeding not just the attempted psycho pathology which I am only started to put two and two together as a plastic tampon inserter….nonetheless introducing a few new links..on RED fetish.

One red angel signing off